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Literature
Just Like Me.
If you were to ask me
why I had to leave
I might answer
it was for relief
I might tell you
a number of lies
and hope that you
wouldn't realize
that I just wanna
see you cry
I wanna see
your stone heart break
want you to bleed
want you to ache
want your heart to break
like you broke mine
so many times
I wanna see you
on your knees
want you to beg
want you to plead
just like me
just like me
No I would never
take it out on you
would never walk away
just to see what you'd do
but as long as we're at it
I might as well say
yes, I mean to put your heart
and soul to the test
yes, I mean to make you
give me your very best
give me your best
I wanna see your
stone heart break
like you broke mine
so many times
want it to break
want you to bleed
wanna see you
on your knees
want you to beg
want you to plead
want you to ache
want you to bleed
just like me
just like me
just like me
just like me
I wanna see your
stone heart break
like you broke mine
so many times
want it to break
want you to bleed
wann
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If I Could Play.
If I could play
just a little bit better
baby you might know
my little game
it's not the kind
that just leads to trouble
and the ends and the means
are just the same
but your shadow darkens my soul
your oversight is taking its toll
if I could tell you
just a little bit clearer
you might see
what's on my mind
what I say
is your disappointment
and my words are
leaving me behind
but your shadow darkens my soul
your oversight is taking its toll
if I could play
just a little bit better
you might know
my little game
it's not the kind
that just leads to trouble
and the ends and the means
are just the same
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Literature
Dizzy Dance.
A girl does a dance and gets dizzy and falls down.
She stands up and then she falls down again.  She
stands up and she crashes into her bookcase, all
the books fall out.  She runs to the bathroom
to slowly vomit pink legos while her boyfriend
watches.  The next day she gets sad and eats
mushrooms and regrets it immediately.  All night
she writhes like a worm on the couch.  Her friends
call an ambulance.  She calls her mother,
but she doesn't answer.
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Literature
If You Were Here Now.
If you were here now,
I'd hold your hand,
tell you there, there,
I understand. I'd grip
your giving heart, and say,
let's go.  A better life
awaits us somewhere out there,
you know.
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Literature
If Only.
If only I could smash a mirror
as big as me every day.  If only
I could find a way to break into
a house, axe every door, piss on the floor,
destroy every delicate thing in it,
then light it up and burn it down.
If only I could break your legs and hands
shoot you in the face with rubber bands.
If only I could break your little dreams
and kick your smile right into the street.
If only I could kill a little animal,
cut it open, cut it off, and play a game
with it's bones.  If only I had a haunted
house to tear down, one that I called home.
If only I had your grave to spit on;
I'd go there and stare at the water
and the bridge, and I'd read something
you wrote, I'd say things that I never
told you, like how you ruined my life.
If only I could be an angry pitbull,
and write you a letter saying you are
going straight to hell, you killed
your own daughter, you are a witch,
and I take pride in the fact that
you will never see me again.  If only
I had a time machine, I'd go back and
do a lot d
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Literature
My Metronome.
You take the razorblade away from me
you kiss the scars I gave myself
as if they still bleed
You take my hands into yours
so they can't hurt me anymore
you're the one who set me free
And I don't know how
you put up with me
I don't know how
you put up with me
I don't know if we'll
ever see the girl
that I so long to be
Tell me why you want me to stay
I'll let you know if I wanna go
maybe you'll come with me someday
maybe you'll come with me someday
And I don't know how
you put up with me
I don't know how
you put up with me
I don't know if we'll
ever see the girl
that I so long to be
I know it's scary
like lightning
I know my mind
is frightening
I've lived in this blackhole
for 22 years
but I know that you love me
cuz you call me your bunny every day
so I'll pack these fears away
somewhere safe
and I'll release
these toxic tears
with grace
and I'll stay
in the only place
I call my home
that's your heart,
my metronome
I don't know how
you put up with me
I don't know how
you put up with me
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that elusive winding staircase
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usually where depth-perception
would fail me.
I'd descend slowly, imagining your palm
bracing the small of my back, stare up
at the two-way mirror with a cheeky-dissatisfaction
for a god's time not-so-well wasted
on me -
          my pious intentions.
it always seemed to take forever to reach
the exit; new ailments, another list of
prescriptions from a doctor who still wouldn't
look me in the face, a firmer sense of my
withering parts; the acceptance of.
yet it would terminate the same way, every
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Hi everyone!

I know probably no one looks at this page anymore, but I figured I would post anyway. I've finally decided to publish a book of poetry and I am going to do an ebook on Kindle for cheap. It is a book I put together several years ago but probably because it was too difficult for me to deal with, I gave it up and decided not to publish. Now that I'm in a different place, I want to go through with it. I am going to put a link to the Facebook page for it so you can keep updated on when it's coming out and stuff. It should be finished in a couple weeks. So far I have 27 poems that I am including, and I have deleted all of these from my DA page already. This is a compilation of poems that I wrote about my mom after she died. Needless to say it is really really sad. Like super duper sad. Like cry yourself to sleep in your bed alone sad. Like watching someone shoot a litter of newborn puppies sad. Like, you know, SAD.

So anyway, I'm calling it: The Saddest Poems In The World.

And I hope you buy it.
And I hope you like it.
And I hope it makes you cry.
And I hope it makes you smile.
And I hope you share it with your friends.
And I hope you leave a review on Amazon.
And I hope you're still there.
And I hope you still love me.

Because I still love you. ♥

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Hi everyone!

I know probably no one looks at this page anymore, but I figured I would post anyway. I've finally decided to publish a book of poetry and I am going to do an ebook on Kindle for cheap. It is a book I put together several years ago but probably because it was too difficult for me to deal with, I gave it up and decided not to publish. Now that I'm in a different place, I want to go through with it. I am going to put a link to the Facebook page for it so you can keep updated on when it's coming out and stuff. It should be finished in a couple weeks. So far I have 27 poems that I am including, and I have deleted all of these from my DA page already. This is a compilation of poems that I wrote about my mom after she died. Needless to say it is really really sad. Like super duper sad. Like cry yourself to sleep in your bed alone sad. Like watching someone shoot a litter of newborn puppies sad. Like, you know, SAD.

So anyway, I'm calling it: The Saddest Poems In The World.

And I hope you buy it.
And I hope you like it.
And I hope it makes you cry.
And I hope it makes you smile.
And I hope you share it with your friends.
And I hope you leave a review on Amazon.
And I hope you're still there.
And I hope you still love me.

Because I still love you. ♥

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ThatWickedDetective Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I hope you're still around, you and your gallery are gorgeous. Your MM profile is amazing, I love the photo with the bananas ;-)
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner May 24, 2017
I'm not around so much on this site anymore, sadly. I feel like my old DA homies aren't around anymore either so it stopped being as fun :( 
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ThatWickedDetective Featured By Owner May 25, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I know what you mean, nothing seems as much fun these days. Life has become way too serious :-(
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner May 30, 2017
Lol that is very sadly true... 
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tomorrow78 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
Stay the way you are!
👍👍
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner May 24, 2017
Will do! ♥
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MightyRaptor Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Whats your favorite animal of all time?
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner May 24, 2017
Real or imaginary?
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MightyRaptor Featured By Owner May 24, 2017  Student Digital Artist
real 
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