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Guilt is a piano on top of you
instead of a man.  Street noises
drain you like bleach on a rainbow.
Indecision becomes a washer & dryer
you can't stop putting things into
& taking things out of all through
a painful fluorescent night.  The

brain becomes smoke, a hidden stash
of dark red cigarettes, dipped in
formaldehyde, waiting for you.
Depressing Russian literature
becomes your best friend & you
can't remember what it is like

to have a flesh & bone best friend,
a soft voice at the other end, someone to cough up
pounds of dirt and flashlights and floods with you.
Fun becomes self-destruction in the form of 47 grams

or too much coffee in the blood.
Death becomes a run-on sentence
wraps its arms around you, puts its
mouth all over a frozen horse.

Health becomes a science,
frightens you with its bones,
pulls at its skin like polyester.

Today is a miracle, & yesterday
was one too.
Check out this video of me reading this poem live from my bedroom!!: [link]
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o0Nikiri0o Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2012
Russia <3
Chocolatelover1 Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2012
This is an amazing example of gorgeous art. This makes you think a little. I love how you describe Russian literature in a way most people didn't think of. Keep up the great work!
magalbagal Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2012  Student Writer
omg luv this u shud join my group and display it. home-of-literature
ObsidianWyng Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist
Uncultured-Buffoon Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2012
The Russian literature I have read really is depressing.
When I was five my Russian grandmother got me a book full of Russian fairy tales her mother used to tell her. I found it a couple months ago and read it thinking it was going to be cute. Instead, I found that in the end most people get eaten by wolves or starve to death or lose a couple of limbs. It is quite sad.
This was amazing.
Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
Thank you. Now I really want to read those fairy tales, they sound awesome!!!! ♥
maydaybird Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2011   Traditional Artist
I read this in 2010 and I still come back to it.
Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
Thanks for coming. ♥
Nobody-said-so Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2010
This is the kind of poem that takes one's breath away. I find your tone to be subtly matter-of-fact and depressing - I can imagine hearing this from a stony-faced person holding a cigarette, and when I can imagine the speaker, it's a good sign that the writer has made a work of epic win. :D Congratulations on the DD!
Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
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