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Guilt is a piano on top of you
instead of a man.  Street noises
drain you like bleach on a rainbow.
Indecision becomes a washer & dryer
you can't stop putting things into
& taking things out of all through
a painful fluorescent night.  The

brain becomes smoke, a hidden stash
of dark red cigarettes, dipped in
formaldehyde, waiting for you.
Depressing Russian literature
becomes your best friend & you
can't remember what it is like

to have a flesh & bone best friend,
a soft voice at the other end, someone to cough up
pounds of dirt and flashlights and floods with you.
Fun becomes self-destruction in the form of 47 grams

or too much coffee in the blood.
Death becomes a run-on sentence
wraps its arms around you, puts its
mouth all over a frozen horse.

Health becomes a science,
frightens you with its bones,
pulls at its skin like polyester.

Today is a miracle, & yesterday
was one too.
Check out this video of me reading this poem live from my bedroom!!: [link]
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o0Nikiri0o Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2012
Russia <3
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Chocolatelover1 Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2012
This is an amazing example of gorgeous art. This makes you think a little. I love how you describe Russian literature in a way most people didn't think of. Keep up the great work!
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magalbagal Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2012  Student Writer
omg luv this u shud join my group and display it. home-of-literature
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ObsidianWyng Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist
wow...
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Uncultured-Buffoon Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2012
The Russian literature I have read really is depressing.
When I was five my Russian grandmother got me a book full of Russian fairy tales her mother used to tell her. I found it a couple months ago and read it thinking it was going to be cute. Instead, I found that in the end most people get eaten by wolves or starve to death or lose a couple of limbs. It is quite sad.
This was amazing.
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
Thank you. Now I really want to read those fairy tales, they sound awesome!!!! ♥
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maydaybird Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2011   Traditional Artist
I read this in 2010 and I still come back to it.
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
Thanks for coming. ♥
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Nobody-said-so Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2010
This is the kind of poem that takes one's breath away. I find your tone to be subtly matter-of-fact and depressing - I can imagine hearing this from a stony-faced person holding a cigarette, and when I can imagine the speaker, it's a good sign that the writer has made a work of epic win. :D Congratulations on the DD!
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
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Lomaiwe Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2010   Artist
This is incredible.
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
Your face is incredible!
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katali-demonstra Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
This basically crystallizes everything I've been feeling for the past few weeks. Thank you, thank you, for this. <3
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
You are welcome. ♥
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kallia-goldenwings Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
that is just amzing but chilling and what shock just wondeerful
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
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amber-rayin Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
i quite enjoyed it, but its the last two lines i find stunning.

so simple, to the point, and something maybe we all should be more aware of...
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
Thanks... ♥
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booksandanimals2000 Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010   Writer
I have no clue what the overall message is, but I enjoyed it, in a dark way.
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
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AnterieRosetta Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
such a powerful message. I love it.
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
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BonesBleachedBare Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
i like your use of enjambment. really makes the poem flow. and the imagery is both bizarre and perfect for the mood. love it!
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
Thanks BZ! ♥
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TortureAdopts Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
I love this, especially the 1st and 3rd stanzas.
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
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Amaya-Garnet Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
That was a beautiful poem, the words came together into a perfect, elegant and sad mood.
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
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CountChristoph Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010   Writer
The word 'becomes' is misspelled in the fourth line.
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
thanks man
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CountChristoph Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010   Writer
Oh, yes, you are quite welcome.
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pigbabe93 Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
amazing
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
Waahhhh ♥
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ohsostarryeyed Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
i approve so much of you getting a daily deviation, just saying
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ChloroformBoy Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
do you approve of the suggester though
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ohsostarryeyed Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
of course not >:l
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ChloroformBoy Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
gu
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
dr
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ChloroformBoy Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2012
un
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mint-bunny Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
Those last two lines..amazing.
This is one DD deserved!
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
Thanks bunny ♥
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jade-pandora Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
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Underground-Rogue Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010  Student Writer
Absolutely incredible.
The last two lines just twisted my stomach, phenomenal writing there.
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
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imanani Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
thank you
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2012
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ChloroformBoy Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
first DD* lol i fail at 2 AM
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:iconchloroformboy:
ChloroformBoy Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
your first dA ! :D i didn't know it'd be this soon though hahaha. and i almost was too lazy to suggest it, but was like, mehhh i love this piece more than i love procrastinating :P <3
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Self-Intoxication Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
thanks dude! i was wondering when the fuck the internet would notice me!

*:heart:*
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:iconchloroformboy:
ChloroformBoy Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2010
you deserve to be noticed !
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