Self-Intoxication

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Just Like Me. by Self-Intoxication, literature

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Just Like Me.

If you were to ask me why I had to leave I might answer it was for relief I might tell you a number of lies and hope that you wouldn't realize that I just wanna see you cry I wanna see your stone heart break want you to bleed want you to ache want your heart to break like you broke mine so many times I wanna see you on your knees want you to beg want you to plead just like me just like me No I would never take it out on you would never walk away just to see what you'd do but as long as we're at it I might as well say yes, I mean to put your heart and soul to the test yes, I mean to make you give me your very

If I Could Play. by Self-Intoxication, literature

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If I Could Play.

If I could play just a little bit better baby you might know my little game it's not the kind that just leads to trouble and the ends and the means are just the same but your shadow darkens my soul your oversight is taking its toll if I could tell you just a little bit clearer you might see what's on my mind what I say is your disappointment and my words are leaving me behind but your shadow darkens my soul your oversight is taking its toll if I could play just a little bit better you might know my little game it's not the kind that just leads to trouble and the ends and the means are just the same

Dizzy Dance. by Self-Intoxication, literature

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Dizzy Dance.

A girl does a dance and gets dizzy and falls down. She stands up and then she falls down again. She stands up and she crashes into her bookcase, all the books fall out. She runs to the bathroom to slowly vomit pink legos while her boyfriend watches. The next day she gets sad and eats mushrooms and regrets it immediately. All night she writhes like a worm on the couch. Her friends call an ambulance. She calls her mother, but she doesn't answer.

If You Were Here Now. by Self-Intoxication, literature

If Only. by Self-Intoxication, literature

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If Only.

If only I could smash a mirror as big as me every day. If only I could find a way to break into a house, axe every door, piss on the floor, destroy every delicate thing in it, then light it up and burn it down. If only I could break your legs and hands shoot you in the face with rubber bands. If only I could break your little dreams and kick your smile right into the street. If only I could kill a little animal, cut it open, cut it off, and play a game with it's bones. If only I had a haunted house to tear down, one that I called home. If only I had your grave to spit on; I'd go there and stare at the water and the bridge,

My Metronome. by Self-Intoxication, literature

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My Metronome.

You take the razorblade away from me you kiss the scars I gave myself as if they still bleed You take my hands into yours so they can't hurt me anymore you're the one who set me free And I don't know how you put up with me I don't know how you put up with me I don't know if we'll ever see the girl that I so long to be Tell me why you want me to stay I'll let you know if I wanna go maybe you'll come with me someday maybe you'll come with me someday And I don't know how you put up with me I don't know how you put up with me I don't know if we'll ever see the girl that I so long to be I know it's scary like lig

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Just Like Me. by Self-Intoxication, literature

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Just Like Me.

If I Could Play. by Self-Intoxication, literature

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If I Could Play.

Dizzy Dance. by Self-Intoxication, literature

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Dizzy Dance.

If You Were Here Now. by Self-Intoxication, literature

If Only. by Self-Intoxication, literature

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If Only.

My Metronome. by Self-Intoxication, literature

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My Metronome.

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You are a dumbass I hate myself You are a fucking douche bag I want to die I think I am dying It is always bed time I hate you Please hold me I am so tired I don’t want to die alone I cant breathe Your breath smells You smell like five day old sweat from sex Take a shower Take a fucking shower I cant pretend you’re pure when you smell bad No I don't want to suck it are you crazy? I hate you My ache is here. And here. And here. And here. Its all your fault I want to die I am defective anyways Even if you are trying to kill me always I am always dead already It hurts I went to the doctor, and it hurts T

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Ephemera. by Self-Intoxication, literature

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Ephemera.

Try turning a gun inside out. See what happens. Perhaps you will find love there, around the bullets, or a story about love in a way you've never experienced, but you somehow know exists. Try turning a paper crane inside out, or a thousand. See what happens. Reversed, they just make other animals, butterflies that refuse to eat for an entire lifetime, wounded elephants, and spiders that feast upon sunbeams. Try turning your house inside out, like it has an eating disorder, and purges your books and CDs and unwashed laundry onto your lawn, the neighbor's lawn. See what happens when you try

Ephemera.

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About Self-Intoxication

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Jan 11
United States
Deviant for 16 years
www.youtube.com/user/dreakato?feature=watch
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Current Residence: Cali, bitches.
Favourite photographer: a is a.

Favourite Visual Artist

condoleezza rice.

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

kate mcgill. modest mouse. band of horses. the shins. elliott smith. modest mouse. amanda palmer. ratatat.

Favourite Writers

bukowski. ayn rand. hesse.

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glitter.

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Self-Intoxication

May 30, 2017

My First Book!

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Hi everyone! I know probably no one looks at this page anymore, but I figured I would post anyway. I've finally decided to publish a book of poetry and I am going to do an ebook on Kindle for cheap. It is a book I put together several years ago but probably because it was too difficult for me to deal with, I gave it up and decided not to publish. Now that I'm in a different place, I want to go through with it. I am going to put a link to the Facebook page for it so you can keep updated on when it's coming out and stuff. It should be finished in a couple weeks. So far I have 27 poems that I am including, and I have deleted all of these from m

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Oct 29, 2014

I changed my fucking avatar! Holy shit!!!!

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Self-Intoxication

Jan 16, 2012

The Chapbook, Volume 1!

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Hey all, There's a little chapbook I made called "Bubblegum Chaos."  It appears in a book called "The Chapbook" which is a compilation of a few people's different chapbooks.  It is available on Amazon for about 16 bucks.  Buy it if this excites you.  If you are poor like me, you may want to hold off until I come out with my first book of poetry sometime this year.  It will be published through Otis Nebula http://www.otisnebula.com/otisnebula/Home.html Here is the Amazon link: http://www.amazon.com/Chapbook-1/dp/1468001566/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1326672353&sr=8-1 Well.  Sorry for the lack of postings lately.  I have been exploring the depth